Is My Husband a Sex Addict? Here’s How to Find Out

If you’ve found yourself typing “Is My Husband a Sex Addict?”, you’re not alone. For nearly two decades, I have helped women navigate betrayal. Through over 200 long-form interviews and more than 8,000 clients served, clear patterns emerge in the marriages of women asking this question.

Most women don’t ask it casually. They ask it after discovering:

• Secretive online behavior
• Repeated lies
• Emotional affairs
• Physical affairs
• Gaslighting
• Explosive anger when confronted
• Blame-shifting
• Manipulation

On The Betrayal Trauma Recovery Podcast, women share how they eventually discovered what was really happening.

But here is what matters most: The label matters less than the impact on you.

Is My Husband a Sex Addict? Start With Behavior, Not Labels

Before trying to diagnose him, identify what behaviors you are experiencing.

The question is not just whether he is addicted.

The question is:

• Is he lying?
• Has he manipulated you?
• Does he use coercion to subtly threaten you?
• Is he emotionally safe?

Below are the most common patterns I’ve seen in women who later realized their husbands were either addicted, abusive, or both.

10 Signs Your Husband May Be a Sex Addict

1. He Groomed You Early in the Relationship

Many women describe feeling “swept off their feet.”

Watch for early patterns like:

• Excessive attentiveness
• Constant texting
• Love-bombing
• Always having the “perfect answer”
• Pushing sexual or emotional boundaries, then apologizing
• Claiming he has never used inappropriate media
• Over-the-top generosity

Grooming builds trust quickly. It creates emotional dependence before the deception is exposed.

2. He Has Secret Sexual Behavior

Common patterns include:

• Use of inappropriate media
• Online sexual chatting
• Emotional affairs
• Physical affairs
• Hidden hotel stays
• Contact with multiple women

Secrecy around sexual behavior is a major red flag.

3. He Lies Convincingly

Many women describe feeling outsmarted.

He may:

• Learn how you check up on him
• Outsmart tracking methods
• Turn suspicion into “paranoia”
• Rewrite history
• Make you question your memory

This is not miscommunication.

This is gaslighting.

4. He Makes You Feel Crazy

When you sense something is wrong, he may respond with:

“You’re paranoid.”
“You’re imagining things.”
“Other people think you overreact.”

Over time, this erodes your trust in your own intuition.

5. He Explodes in Anger When Confronted

Another common pattern:

• Name-calling
• Yelling
• Throwing things
• Intimidation

Many women quickly learn to “stay in line” to prevent outbursts.

This is coercive control, a form of domestic abuse.

6. Therapists Focus on Him — Not You

One of the biggest dangers in the sex addiction model is that it often centers the addict.

Women are frequently told:

• Don’t shame him
• Support his recovery
• Work on your triggers
• Be patient
• Help him heal

Meanwhile, no one asks:

Are you emotionally safe?

Addiction-centered treatment can unintentionally silence victims.

7. He Uses “Addiction” to Avoid Accountability

Addiction does not remove agency.

Men still make choices.

Many say:

“I can’t help it.”
“I have a disease.”

But repeated choices create patterns.

Addiction may explain behavior — but it does not excuse harm.

8. He Minimizes or Redefines His Harmful Behavior

When confronted, many husbands:

• Promise change
• Claim therapy will fix everything
• Do the bare minimum
• Continue secret behavior

Minimization is part of the cycle.

9. He Shifts Blame to You

Common phrases include:

“If you were more sexual…”
“If you were more supportive…”
“You’re too controlling…”
“You’re the reason I hide things…”

Blame-shifting is not recovery.

It is manipulation.

10. You Feel Relief When You’re Away From Him

This may be the clearest sign.

Many women report that after separation or space, they feel more calm, confident, and stable.

Relief is information.

Is He Really an Addict? Or Is It Something Else?

Here’s the hard truth:

If you ask, “Is my husband a sex addict?” and pursue the addiction model alone, your next steps often focus on helping him.

• 12-step programs
• Addiction therapy
• Recovery support for him

But if you recognize abuse, your next steps shift toward:

• Am I safe?
• What boundaries do I need?
• What support do I need?

The way you define what’s happening determines your next move.

The Problem With the Sex Addiction Model

The addiction framework can be dangerous because:

• It centers his struggle.
• The addiction therapist may invite you to pity him.
• It discourages calling behavior abusive.
• It can desensitize women to manipulation.

When women are told not to “shame” him, they often silence themselves instead.

If He Is Lying to You, That Alone Is Enough

You do not need a clinical diagnosis.

If he:

• Lies repeatedly
• Gaslights
• Hides sexual behavior
• Explodes in anger
• Uses manipulation
• Refuses accountability

That is enough information.

Whether you call him an addict or an abuser, the impact on you is abuse.

Final Answer: Is My Husband a Sex Addict?

Maybe. But the more urgent question is:

Is he trustworthy?

You do not need to diagnose him to know whether you feel safe.

If you are unsure whether your husband’s behavior qualifies as addiction, manipulation, or emotional abuse:

• Take the free emotional abuse test.
• Enroll in the Betrayal Trauma Recovery Living Free Workshop to determine your level of safety.
• Attend a Betrayal Trauma Recovery Group Session for validation and clarity.

After nearly two decades of helping women thrive after betrayal, one truth remains clear: You don’t need to figure this out alone.

Transcript: Is My Husband a Sex Addict?

Anne: I have my friend Kate on with me today. We are just hanging out, chatting. About what is a sex addict called? Like what are you going to call your addict husband? If he’s got an addiction, are you going to say sex addict or will you call it something else? We are talking about that. So to put words in Kate’s mouth quickly, we both agree that pornography is addictive. We both agree that its use is abuse.

And then also the behaviors around it, the gaslighting, the lying, the manipulation. All those types of behaviors around it constitute emotional abuse, psychological abuse, and sexual coercion. So we both agree on that point. I prefer to use the word abusive. When we were talking before, Kate said, “No, I actually like the word addiction.” So Kate, can you talk about why you like using the word addiction?

Kate: I actually like both. I know there are some people out there who are like, maybe it’s not an addiction, maybe it’s a compulsion. So we’ll just get rid of the word addiction and call it all abuse. It does fit the definition of addiction. The research on the brain shows it is an addiction. I like to call it addiction simply because if you call it a compulsion, like some people have been doing, well, anything could be compulsive.

Did he eat a cake? Is he compulsive with a cake? Does he bite his nails compulsively? When you say, “Oh, my husband has a compulsive issue.” It just doesn’t hold as much seriousness as addiction does.

The Seriousness Of Addiction

Kate: It’s as if somebody who had cancer, were to say, “I have an illness.” Some people might be like, “Oh, is it a serious illness?” Other people might be like, “Oh, maybe it’s just a common cold.” The word addiction has more seriousness than compulsion. As far as either abuse or addiction, I just use both because they feed off each other so much.

I don’t think you can have sex addiction without some type of abuse. I don’t know about other addictions. I’ve heard from other people who said their husbands were maybe alcoholics, weren’t sex addicts, and weren’t abusive. I even did a poll once. Ninety-nine percent of betrayed wives experienced some type of abuse from their husbands.

Anne: I think the pornography use in and of itself is abuse. It’s abusive for trust, it’s abuse of your marriage contract and vows. To be faithful, for example, and not cheat on me. And I consider pornography use to be cheating, and so therefore it’s an abuse of those vows.

The reason I’ve dropped the word “addiction” is not because I don’t think it’s addictive. I absolutely think it’s addictive. The reason why I prefer to use the word abuse in all contexts is because addiction, to me, says this is what he is experiencing. I’m not so concerned about what he is experiencing. I am more concerned about what the victim is experiencing.

There’s the cause, and then there’s the effect. The effect to her, what she feels, and the way she experiences all his behaviors is always abuse. There’s no other word for it. So that’s why I prefer to say this is abuse, because of its effect on the victim of this scenario.

The Misconception Of Addiction

Anne: Most of the time, I’ve dropped the word addiction completely, and I always call it abuse. I don’t want people to get the wrong impression that I don’t think it’s addictive, because I do. I just think the word abuse really gets to the heart of what the wife is going through, rather than focusing on him and what he’s going through. For me, anytime someone says the word “addiction”, there’s this, oh, poor him, he’s got an addiction.

If someone tells the story, “This guy stole this car, he rammed into this stuff, he went around and he did all these bad things!” People would be horrified. Oh, wow, what a jerk or something. But if you say, “They got addicted to cocaine when they were young. Then they stole a car, they ran over a bunch of people.”

You say the same exact stuff, and they’re like, “He was addicted to cocaine.” I just don’t want there to be any pity for the addict. because they feed off of that and use that to victim blame and groom other people. So I prefer not to use the word addict to help keep victims safe. This is abuse, and I don’t care if you’re an addict or not. Who am I to say how you are experiencing this? What I’m concerned about is how your behaviors affect me.

Kate: Oh, I love that. I love you said that. I use the word addiction mostly when I interact with other women. There are times to use the word addiction, but yes, the main focus is what is happening to you is abuse. It’s not addiction that’s happening to you, it’s abuse.

Seeking Safety Over Marriage

Anne: Yeah, if a woman describes to me what is happening to her. And then she asks, Is my husband a sex addict? I’d be like, I don’t know. whether he’s an addict or not, but what I know is these behaviors you’ve just described are abuse. And we have thousands of women in our community. And my concern is that the words we use determine their next steps. The word addiction is dangerous because the first thing that comes to mind is 12 step recovery program.

She’s always been resisting this type of abuse. And she feels like a recovery program keeping her family together will be the safer route. She is doing what she’s supposed to do. She’s trying to get help. If she hears the word abuse, rather than try and keep her “marriage safe.” She’s going to think I need to be safe. How can I get myself to safety?

Kate: Completely different.

Anne: I would say it’s the victim’s first attempt to get to safety. She is trying to see if he goes to a 12-step program, or if he does this or that, will that make her safer? Meaning, will that change him into a safe person? She hopes through her attempts for safety, he will turn from being an unsafe person to being a safe person.

Technically speaking, if he did that, it would solve her safety problem. The unfortunate thing is, he just starts grooming more or lying more. It actually creates less safety. And she doesn’t know that.

Kate: If you think about it, you can even say, “Yes, your husband is being abusive.”

The Problem With The Addiction Model

Kate: They’re trying to be proactive about their lives, so they’re going to go online, they’re going to search things like, my husband needs help. Where’s the help?” There will be more help in the sex addiction field.

Anne: For their husband?

Kate: Yes.

Anne: Because everyone uses the addiction model. Let’s talk about why it’s scary. How would you describe it?

Kate: I’ll start at the beginning. First off, when people think of addiction, they think, “Oh, he can’t help it.” That is actually not accurate. There were even people back before AA started who believed they couldn’t help it. Yes, they have a brain disease in some aspects. You can verify that with brain scans, but it is a self-inflicted disease.

If a smoker smokes 12 packs a day and got lung cancer, would that smoker be like, “I can’t stop smoking. The cancer is making me do it. I can’t go and get treatment because the cancer is not letting me.” No, everyone would be like, that’s insane. So why is it that we do that when it comes to addiction?

“They can’t because they got a disease. They can’t help it.” So that is like the foundation of many of the whole addiction world; especially sex addiction. No, no, no, they still have agency. They still have choice. It is a self-inflicted disease. Their choices caused it, not the reverse. The sex addiction world hijacks it and makes it even more ridiculous.

Anne: With the sex addiction model, they don’t really know what to do with the victim. They say they use the trauma model, but then they won’t admit where the trauma is coming from. They refuse to say she’s traumatized by abuse.

Victim Desensitization In Therapy

Kate: Yo, it’s awful. It is awful. You say the word abuse in the sex addiction industry, and they’re like, [gasp!] “How dare you say that! You’re shaming the addict!” What? I’m literally stating a behavior they’re doing. You guys are making it worse. The whole industry is addict-centric.

Anne: Yes, it is not victim-centric.

Kate: It is not at all. Even if somebody says they’re a betrayal trauma therapist, if they’re coming from the sex addiction industry, it means they’re still in the addiction industry, still addict-centric. It’s like, “We’re going to help you handle your trauma so you can help your husband… or so you’re not shaming your husband… or so you’re not triggering your husband so he can get into recovery.” That’s not what it should be at all.

Anne: Or, so your husband’s abusive behaviors aren’t triggery to you. That’s the thing I see the most. For example, the husband is still abusive, and the sex addiction professional. Not somebody at our organization, Betrayal Trauma Recovery, but a so-called “betrayal trauma expert” will be like, “You’re just still being traumatized from the past when he used to use pornography. Now he’s not using it anymore, so I don’t know why when he says these things to you, it’s upsetting.

You’re just being triggered, so let’s work on your triggers.” They’re not recognizing he’s gaslighting her, he’s manipulating her, still emotionally and psychologically abusing her. And she’s still a victim of sexual coercion. You should not help a victim become desensitized to abuse. It feels like that is what the sex addiction industry is trying to do in their treatment of victims. desensitize you to this abuse.

The Danger Of Mislabeling Abuse

Anne: “Let’s help you be tolerant of the abuse, because otherwise your marriage will fall apart. You want to keep your marriage, right?” Instead of saying, “You’re a victim of abuse. He is an abuser.” The worst case scenario is happening right now. The worst case scenario isn’t divorce, let’s get you to safety. They refuse to go there.

Kate: They refuse. I can’t even count how many friends I’ve had who have gone to very popular, and you know who I’m talking about. Very popular betrayal trauma companies, whatever organizations, and they’ve had therapists.

Anne: That aren’t us. Let’s say that.

Kate: She had just spent long months trying to convince her husband it’s abuse, and he finally believes it. Then you have a therapist saying, in front of the husband, “Your husband’s not abusing you. No, what your husband did to you is not abuse.”

What’s going to happen? I guarantee the husband will be more abusive. He’s going to be more entitled. He’d be like, “Oh, I’m not abusive. A therapist said so!” It is so dangerous and so damaging to do that.

Anne: Two of the things the pornography addiction recovery world asks of a spouse of an addict. Or a victim of abuse would be number one, to not shame him, and number two, connect with him. I think it’s all they’ve got. They can’t think of anything else to say.

Shame & Its Misinterpretation

Anne: They have to pretend like it’s not that big of a deal, so that she’ll stay. Because they’re worried about her leaving. They don’t want his support system leaving him, because it could be bad for him. But they never stopped to think, is it good for her? In the pornography addiction recovery world, the main concern of these professionals is him. Their main concern is not her. At Betrayal Trauma Recovery, our main concern is her. Is she safe? Is she okay? Does she have her needs met?

Kate and I, again, I’ll put words in your mouth here, but we don’t actually think that shame is even a thing. Everybody feels shame. Some people feel shame, and they eat ice cream. And some people feel shame, and they go for a run. Some people feel shame, and they start crying. Shame is not the cause of someone looking at pornography.

Kate: It does not. It does not cause it. You have men who feel no shame for watching it. They did not grow up in religious culture. They did not grow up with any outside source saying it is bad. And yet they’re still having issues with it.

Anne: Exactly, they don’t feel shame, but they use shame to activate your shame to make you feel bad or guilty to manipulate you. The problem isn’t their overwhelming shame, it’s their lack of shame. Of course, to other people, they have to act like they have shame; otherwise, they would seem like monsters. There are also men who don’t look at pornography when they feel shame.

Healthy Shame

Anne: Shame is a normal human emotion that should not be avoided at all costs or that we should be striving to reduce. It’s something that happens that we need to be healthy about. A healthy person deals with their shame in healthy ways. An unhealthy person deals with their shame in unhealthy ways, but it’s not the cause of anybody’s behavior.

Yes, I understand where people have become more obsessed about the whole shame thing. If you talk about the actual dictionary definition of shame, it is not always bad. Brene Brown’s definition, shame is not good. But it can be healthy.

Anne: To put this in perspective, Brene Brown is trying to help people deal with their own shame. She’s not trying to help people deal with other people’s shame. But some people are actually bad people.

Kate: Yes.

Anne: If somebody skis every Saturday, they’re a skier. If someone plays tennis twice a week, they are a tennis player. If someone runs track and does baseball and all kinds of things, they’re an athlete. You are what you choose to do. So if someone is continually lying, they’re a liar. If someone continually uses pornography, they’re a pornography user. The Bible and whatever scriptures you use have a word for this. It is called wicked.

There is nowhere in the scriptures I have ever seen that says, “He was wicked because he felt shame. Then this wicked person stopped being wicked because they said, “You’re not a bad person; you’re not a wicked person, just these things you’re doing are wicked.” No, in the scriptures, it actually says they are a wicked person.

Scriptural Perspective On Wickedness

Anne: They are wicked because they choose evil things over and over again. Part of the accountability, honesty and authenticity is for these men to actually recognize I technically really am a bad person.

Kate: “You can’t say someone’s a bad person! That’s not who they are!”

Anne: Your behavior defines who you are.

Kate: So you’re saying Alfred Kinsey is not a bad person? I’m pretty sure we can call him a bad person. I can call him a bad, disgusting person because he was. It doesn’t mean they were always bad, and that doesn’t mean they can’t change. But right now, yeah, what they did, they are a bad person. Like we can’t call them bad, it actually makes it worse and fuels the problem.

Anne: Listen to the scripture: “I say unto you, nay, except you make our creator a liar from the beginning, or suppose he is a liar from the beginning. You cannot suppose such can have a place in the kingdom of heaven, but they shall be cast out for they are children of the kingdom of the devil.” There are other scriptures that say he is a child of hell. That probably wouldn’t be the wisest thing to say, but technically speaking, their choices have created a wicked character.

They literally are a wicked person. It never says anywhere in the scriptures, “They were wicked so we did not shame them. We told them, no, you’re not wicked you’re not bad, You’re good. And then they stopped being wicked.”

Then the advice, our loving Heavenly Father cast them out. In the scriptures, you will find it. It is all over the place.

Adults vs. Children In Accountability

Kate: I will add, just in case, because I’m guessing some people might listen to this and be like, “Wait a minute, but I grew up thinking I was a bad kid and it didn’t help me.” We’re not talking about children. We are talking about grown men, grown people who know better.

Anne: We’re talking about people who genuinely are making very sad decisions and hurting people. Children are just trying to figure stuff out. Children aren’t wicked.

Kate: Children are not bad. Whereas, an adult with a developed brain who knows better, he’s choosing to. You can always tell when they know better, because do they do this in front of their boss? Friends? Do they mistreat you like this in front of somebody else? If the answer is no, he knows what he’s doing. Unless he has some anger issue where he’s angry, literally to everyone, then maybe he really does legit have some disorder.

I would also say it’s not because of his childhood either. I used to even believe this, but the research actually does not show that. The research shows that when someone’s abusive, it’s because of entitlements, misogyny, that there are choices, not because of their childhood.

Anne: We all know people who have had a hard childhood, who are healthy adults. The response is, “I know someone who went through a similar experience to yours, and they’re not abusive to their wife.”

Kate: Exactly, thankfully, the anti-abuse industry is starting to recognize this. They’re starting to teach us that. He’s not an addict, because he drank too much, or because he had childhood trauma; that’s not why he’s abusive. It is because of entitlements and misogyny.

If He’s Lying To You, It Hurts You

Anne: Yeah. Well, no matter what you call it. Those behaviors are abusive to you. And so that’s why I like calling it abuse. Listeners, what do you think? Comment on this podcast transcript below. Let me know what you think.

Kate. You’re awesome. Thanks for hanging out today.

My Husband’s Addiction Started Before We Married

Naomi describes how to know if your husband has a sex addiction, and how her husband groomed her when they dated.

How Does A Man With A Sex Addiction Groom His Wife?

To identify whether your husband’s addiction is causing him to manipulate you through grooming, watch for the following:

• Feeling “swept off your feet”
• Always receiving the “perfect answer” to your questions
• Constant attentiveness and love-bombing
• Pushing your boundaries (sexual, physical, emotional) but always apologizing afterwards and committing to never doing it again
• Claiming to have never used pornography or other sexual acting out behaviors
• Overly generous with time and money

If you’re still unsure if he’s been manipulating you in this way, enroll in The Betrayal Trauma Recovery Living Free Workshop.

I Believed Him When He Said He Said He’d Get Recovery For His Addiciton

One of the most painful aspects of being married to a addict is struggling to determine if he’s telling the truth. Why?

• Sex addicts are very persuasive.
• The grooming/love-bombing process is a relief from overtly abusive behaviors, and distracts victims from identifying abuse.
• Men with sex addictions skillfully manipulate others and say exactly the right things to appear repentant and willing to change.

Women in this situation often struggle with their addict husband’s claims that they are naive, stupid, or desperate.

As women learn about the trauma his behavior has caused, they empower themselves to voice their stories and feelings. This paves the way for healing.

Further, when a woman understands all the facets of how his addiction affects her, she’s able to make decisions to protect herself.

At Betrayal Trauma Recovery, we understand the struggle to know if your husband has aN addiction.

Betrayal Trauma Recovery Group Sessions offer women the validation, support, and community that they deserve. Attend a session today and begin your healing journey.

Transcript: How To Know If Your Husband Has AN Addiction

Anne: We have a member of our community on today’s episode, we’re going to call her Naomi. Welcome, Naomi.

Naomi: thank you.

Grooming and The Early Signs of aN Addiction

Anne: Let’s start at the beginning of your story when you were dating.

Looking back. How would you describe it? Was there anything happening that would have helped you know if your husband has an addiction had you known then what you know now?

Naomi: I think it was a pretty typical grooming process. But I didn’t know how to tell if my husband was grooming me. He was just really kind. We were friends at first and then it progressed into more. He was very attentive and in contact almost hourly. I always got text messages, and he was always complimentary and kind. He swept me off my feet.

Early signs of Abuse in marriage

Naomi: After we got married, he had these huge outbursts of anger, and said horrible things. I quickly learned that if I stayed in line with what he wanted, those did not occur as often.

And so I very quickly learned to anticipate what might cause angry outbursts. To avoid the name calling and the yelling and throwing things and stuff like that.

Anne:   Which is the purpose of abuse: to coerce someone to do what you want, rather than a healthy way of interacting, being honest and asking them nicely and giving them the ability to choose for themselves. Often when you know your husband has a addiction, they’ll use coercion in really subtle, even kind ways to stop you from talking about it. This is one thing that can help you deal with an addict husband.

When did you discover your husband’s addiction? from talking about it.

Discovering the truth, how to know if your husband has an Addiction

Naomi: About three years into our marriage, I discovered he was involved with a woman. At that point, I was willing to take most of the blame. I had said, obviously I’m not meeting your needs. We need to go see a counselor. We need to talk to the bishop. Let’s work this out. And so he acknowledged he was using pornography. I am pretty smart and I’m quick with computers.

I checked up on him a lot. He’s also very smart and very, very good with computers, and so he quickly learned how to avoid getting caught. So we kind of played this game for a while, where I would check up on him a lot, but eventually I couldn’t catch him anymore because he figured out all the ways that I was checking up on him and he found ways around them.

the patterns to know if your husband has an addiction

Naomi: And then about four years later, I discovered he was involved with a girl at work, and there were other women in between, so we separated. I was staying with my parents. The two bishops I worked with really wanted me to work it out with him.

I didn’t know what else to do, and he was good at convincing me that he was going to change things, and that things were going to get better. So I stayed, and then I caught him involved with a girl again. She was staying in his hotel.

And so at that point, I said, we need a separation. That’s the point when someone brought up my husband’s addiction for the very first time.

When a therapist doesn’t know if your husband has an addiction

Anne: So was this from a therapist? They didn’t help you identify the abuse, but they said your husband has an addiction?

Naomi: So we had been to therapists, we went to therapists the whole time, through 11 years.

But I didn’t realize he was abusing me, and I didn’t think my husband has an addiction either. They never said the word addiction. It was just a pornography problem. Something that he needed to address. At that point, I discovered a lot more about sex addiction. Gaslighting, table turning, grooming.

Understanding Gaslighting

Anne: Could you provide examples of how your husband was gaslighting you?

Naomi: One of the first ones that comes to my mind is when I sensed something was wrong. I always felt like something was wrong, but every once in a while I would just feel it strongly.

And so I’d be like, is everything okay? Is there something going on maybe that you need to tell me about? He would say, you know, eventually you’re going to figure out that that’s just your paranoia or he would question everything I said. Because he is genuinely a very, very intelligent person.

It would leave me feeling like maybe I was crazy. Maybe it was me. He would turn things around, and he would say other people could see it, as well.

Separation

Naomi: We separated, and he still claimed it was going to get better. But when I set boundaries, he decided I was holding him back, and he left.

He did not file for a divorce, but he asked me to do it.

I didn’t want a divorce, but I did what he wanted.

How to know if your husband is recovering from a sex addiction

Naomi: It was good for me to let go and say, this isn’t my problem anymore. But I didn’t want to at the time, and I was devastated.

I didn’t recognize gaslighting as abuse. It took me until after the divorce to recognize that there was abuse, that there was anything other than pornography use.

I read one of the articles you had put out there, and it was talking about ways to recognize whether someone was actually working addiction recovery. I started recognizing a bunch of things that were still going on in my interactions with him after the divorce. Before that, I had had therapists advise me to read a book.

As I read the book, I thought, you know, this doesn’t really seem like me. And then, after reading your article, I read it again and I was like, holy cow, this is exactly me.

He would attack me, but at the end of his attacks, when I was upset, he’d say things like, “You just hate that someone else thinks differently than you, and you can’t control what they think.”

And I would believe him, because I was feeling upset by that point. And so I was like, yeah, I feel upset about what he’s thinking. I didn’t recognize that his attack was actually the cause of what I was feeling.

But there were times when I had great clarity, and I realized that I didn’t deserve to feel guilty. And then I started listening to different things, like your betrayal trauma podcasts. And I started recognizing slowly that he wasn’t very nice, and I started recognizing my feelings and emotions.

The emotional toll when you know if your husband has an addiction

I buried my emotions deep so that I could just get through each day. But they started coming out, you know, as I’d remember things and think about things that would be different. I noticed I was happy, and I hadn’t felt that in a while. It was because I got away from his abuse and had confidence in myself.

I didn’t feel like I constantly had to please someone else, or there were going to be huge repercussions. My relationship with my children became even better, and it was pretty good. They were struggling, and as we worked through it together, finding ways to talk about things that were hurting them inside. I gained confidence in my mothering skills and everything around me, where I hadn’t even realized I hadn’t had confidence before.

While listening to betrayal trauma podcasts, I started to recognize just more and more and thought, Oh my goodness, this was way worse. I think when you’re in the situation at the time, you can’t think about how horrible it is, because that would be too hard to handle the situation itself and recognize how bad it is.

Final Reflections on how to know if your husband has an addiction

Naomi: For a lot of people, it comes after.

Anne: Yeah, I experienced the most trauma after he left the home. And I realized how bad it was. Yeah, it’s shocking.

Naomi: And it was your podcast.

It was the Betrayal Trauma Recovery podcast that really helped me recognize. A lot of times I think for the professionals, it’s hard to say abuse. It’s hard to say those words and it’s hard to talk about abuse like grooming, gaslighting, things like that. But it’s really important for the survivor of abuse to hear those words and to understand what really happened to them.

And once they do hear those words. It’s life saving, because it helps you recognize why you had the reactions that you did, that it was really that bad. And that’s why you’re feeling the way that you’re feeling. It was really important.

Anne: Naomi. Thank you so much for sharing how discovering your husband’s addiction helped you realize that he was abusive to you emotionally, psychologically, and even sexually. Your story will help other women struggling to know if their husband has an addiction. Thank you for sharing it.