There are many stories about abuse. The #metoo movement brought many of them into the limelight. Since then, courageous victims are telling their stories of emotional, physical, and sexual abuse.
But what about the silent victims? The missing and murdered women?
Anne Blythe, founder of Betrayal Trauma Recovery, talks to Dave Cawley, host of the Cold podcast series, about the Susan Powell case, empowering victims to protect themselves and seek safety now. Listen to the free BTR podcast and read the full transcript below for more.
Abuse Doesn’t Always Mean Physical Battering
Many abuse victims do not have proof. They don’t have bruises or broken bones to show the world that their partner is abusing them.
Instead, their bruises and brokenness are hidden beneath the surface. They can be found in the way they doubt their own worth, in the way they feel they are responsible for their husband’s choices, in the way they accept abusive treatment without question.
Other forms of abuse, just as serious as physical battering, include:
- Emotional abuse
- Psychological abuse
- Financial abuse
- Sexual abuse
- Covert sexual abuse
- Spiritual abuse
- Covert physical abuse
Like many women in the BTR community, Susan Powell was not a victim of physical battering, as far as experts can tell. But she suffered deeply from the abusive behaviors of her husband, Josh.
Susan Powell’s Story Teaches Us That Victim-Blaming Harms
In my opinion, there’s no one clear answer as to why she stayed in that relationship–because I hear that a lot, right, ‘Why did she stay?’ Which, in my opinion, is the wrong focus, the focus should be on ‘why do we have an abusive man who is perpetrating on his wife?’
Dave Cawley, Cold podcast host
Questions and statements like:
- If it was so bad, why didn’t she leave?
- It takes two to tango – if he’s abusing her, she pushed his buttons.
- Why did you push his buttons?
- Why don’t you work harder on making sure he’s happy?
- He’s not hitting you, are you sure it’s abuse?
place blame on victims and ultimately enable abusers to keep abusing.
Even after Susan Powell’s ten year disappearance, many still blame her subtly by asking, “If it was so bad, then why did she stay?”
As Dave says, the societal focus should be on why so many men are abusing women, not why women are staying in abusive relationships.
Lying & Porn Use: Clear Markers of Abuse
[Pornography users] protect that secret life to the exclusion of everything else. I think part of what creates this danger is the idea that when you are exposed, when, say, a spouse discovers this, now this is going to collapse that entire world.
Dave Cawley, Cold podcast host
When men are living a secret sexual life, the ends that they may go to in order to protect it can be extreme, dangerous, and even life-threatening.
If women pay attention and choose to not justify or dismiss lies and strange behaviors (like keeping their screens private), they may be able to detect abuse quickly and effectively protect themselves from harmful behaviors.
Susan Powell’s Story Teaches Us That Narcissistic Abuse Is Real
Josh Powell was diagnosed with Narcissistic Personality Disorder.
However, even those who are not diagnosed with NPD can be narcissistic abusers.
The mental and emotional toll that narcissistic abuse takes on victims is extreme. Becoming educated about narcissistic abuse, and protecting themselves through effective boundaries, can help women find safety from this insidious form of abuse.
Betrayal Trauma Recovery Advocates For Victims’ Safety
At BTR, our number one priority is that all women find safety from abusive behaviors.
Dave Cawley shares three key points for victims of betrayal and abuse:
3 Tips For Seeking Safety From Abuse
- Trust your gut. If it feels like something is off, it probably is. Don’t ignore that feeling.
- You have more support than you realize. A lot of times, we don’t recognize how strong and wide our network is. Reach out, you might be surprised.
- If you leave, you’re going to be okay. It’s scary to leave, but it’s not as scary as you probably think, once you’re on the other side.
The Betrayal Trauma Recovery Group meets daily in every time zone and offers women a community of supportive, validating, and knowledgeable women to help them through the process of finding safety from betrayal and abuse.
Join today and share your story, process your trauma, ask hard questions, and vent painful feelings. You deserve support – find it with the Betrayal Trauma Recovery Group.
Welcome to Betrayal Trauma Recovery, this is Anne.
I have Dave Cawley, the host of the Cold podcast, which was produced by KSL, on this week. This is a continuation of last week’s podcast. If you didn’t listen to last week’s episode, please go back and listen to that one first and then join us here today so you’ll be caught up to speed.
Welcome back, Dave.
Dave: Thanks, so much Anne. I really appreciate it.
Anne: Alright, so we’ve talked about the psychological abuse that Susan endured. We’ve talked about how she didn’t recognize it. I want to talk about Josh’s behavior after the murder, which I think was really interesting.
Susan Powell’s Story Teaches Us That Abusers Blame Their Victims
It’s similar to many abusers after divorce, actually. They blame their situation on their victim, they continue to lie and hide and manipulate people. In Josh’s case, he had this huge crime and all these people looking at him and reporters trying to investigate.
In my case, there’s been nothing. Nobody’s been trying to investigate or find the truth or anything and he’s still an attorney and he’s still doing his job and he’s still lying about me and saying stuff that’s not true. For example, his current congregation thinks that he’s this amazing saint and that his crazy ex-wife has done him wrong and they feel so bad that he’s this victim.
Even in this case with Josh Powell, where there’s a murder and someone is missing, and all these police are trying to find the cause and you’ve got all of these reporters who are investigating and, still, Josh is walking around.
He’s got his kids. He’s still functioning, sort of—I mean he’s not functioning super well, obviously, but he’s still walking around. He’s still free. Now, he’s got a lot of eyes on him. His neighbors are probably looking at him weirdly. I’m sure his life was miserable.
Susan Powell’s Story Teaches Us That Abusers Are Rarely Held Accountable
Even in his case, he wasn’t immediately struck by lightning or hit by a bus or put in jail. Even in cases of a crime, it’s difficult to hold them accountable.
Let’s talk about the women who don’t have a crime.
Anne: Their partner psychologically and emotionally abuses them. There is no crime. Why do you think society is so bad at holding these guys accountable?
Dave: I think, in a legal sense, especially here in the United States, we have this concept of “innocent until proven guilty.” That is very important to remember, when we’re talking about someone being accused of something criminally, but a marriage is a civil contract, it’s not criminal.
You are married to somebody who is abusing you and you seek a divorce. Through the divorce, say it doesn’t go well, the person isn’t amicable because what divorce is ever amicable, but the mind games and petty ways in which very manipulative men, in particular, can work that system to their advantage or try to hurt or undercut their former spouse, it doesn’t rise to that criminal level.
Hidden Abuse Is Difficult To Detect
I think a lot of people, in broader society, don’t want to feel like they’re passing judgment on somebody without proof or evidence. The very nature of this kind of abuse—that manipulation, financial control, and emotional abuse—is that there is not a trail of evidence.
Even if you were able to take it to a police officer or a prosecutor, they would say, “Well, what is the crime? There is nothing in criminal statute that this violates.” That person, then, is able to go back into society and say, “Well, look. I’m a good guy. I didn’t do anything wrong.”
Anne: “I’m the victim and she was mad at me.”
Anne: My ex says, “She kicked me out of the house for no reason and then she wouldn’t talk to me.” He doesn’t say, “…because I sprained her fingers and I had a no-contact order from the courts.” He doesn’t tell people that part.
Susan Powell’s Story Teaches Us That We Aren’t Alone
Dave: Right. We need to, in a cultural sense, and in the broadest way possible, confront our own perceptions on abuse in relationships and start retraining ourselves about how we react to these kinds of situations. Me telling the Susan Powell story resulted in more people than I can even tell you reaching out to share their own personal experiences.
Even talking to you here, Anne, about your relationship, I think is in a similar vein. A lot of women are dealing with this right now and have never found somebody who they felt safe being very candid with about what they’ve gone through.
“The Most Important Thing I Can Do Is Express Belief And Empathy”
I think a lot of us hold these personal experiences close. We don’t share them. There is shame that’s attached to it, there is fear of not being believed.
What I, personally, learned was that, when people are willing to share those stories with me, when women come forward and say, “Hey, your podcast sounded like my life.”
The most important thing I can do is express belief and empathy and say, “I’m so very grateful that you’re safe. I’m sorry you have gone through or are going through this horrible circumstance. I believe you.”
That opens a conversation. I strongly feel that that is the path forward in trying to address why abusive men, in particular, are able to just walk away kind of clean and say, “Well, hey, I did nothing wrong.”
Anne: Or, “You know, it didn’t work out. Some marriages don’t work out.” That’s why I created this community. To be that safe place, because other places they might go and say, “Well, he’s using pornography.” And people might be like, “So.”
BTR Stands With The Truth That Pornography Is AN Abuse Issue
They’re like, “Well, it hurts and we’re not having sex and if we do have sex it’s confusing. Then he’s lying and then I don’t know what else he’s doing because he’s lying about this.” And people are like, “Well, all guys use porn. Why are you so worried about it?”
There’s that or there’s an alternative side to that and that’s if they go in and say, “He’s using pornography,” and someone immediately says, “Well, then you have to get divorced.”
Anne: And they’re kind of like, “Well, wait.” They’re in this stage where they’re trying to figure out, “Well, I’m not sure if I want to do that.” So, here, at Betrayal Trauma Recovery, we have this safe space.
We’re saying, “We are all about safety. Safety, safety, safety, and we will help you define and figure out what is going on. We recommend that, while you don’t know what’s going on, that you get to safety quickly. Then, from a safe place, you can objectively observe and find out what’s happening.”
Susan Powell’s Story Teaches Us That Abusers & Murderers Use Pornography
Anne: I think it’s really interesting that Susan, I might be wrong so correct me here, but I get the impression that Susan didn’t know about the pornography until the very end. Was there any indication that she knew about it early on?
Dave: I doubt that she did. I mean, as I mentioned in our last conversation, there is some speculation, by some in law enforcement, that maybe she discovered something and that was a catalyst. I’m under the impression that Susan had no clue Josh was viewing pornography.
Anne: In this case I think it’s really interesting. I’m always asking reporters, when you come across a crime or an abuse crime, will you please always report the pornography? Will you always put it in there because? Otherwise, if they say, “He was a murderer,” but they also don’t know there was all this abuse going on otherwise, the pornography isn’t always reported.
I think another thing that’s really interesting is, let’s say a divorce happens and they’ve been going through marriage counseling for 10 or 20 years, and pornography was never discovered but it was always a factor.
“That Is A Serious Abuse Issue”
Anne: That is a serious abuse issue. Where a man has a complete and totally separate life, a double life that they’re living, that they’re keeping secret from their wife on purpose. Then they get divorced and people are like, “Well, they just didn’t get along.” The truth never comes out that he was abusing her psychologically and living this double life the entire time.
The sad thing is that a lot of times she might not know. She might think, “Well, I just wasn’t a good communicator,” or, “I wasn’t attractive enough,” or, “I didn’t make dinner,” or whatever. I think it’s so sad that there are so many women who are blaming themselves when they don’t really understand the full situation.
Dave: And to the point about why do you not hear it reported a lot, if I can talk to that just for a moment?
Anne: Yeah, that would be great.
Dave: It’s a difficult spot because, especially early on in reporting, a lot of times we’re working from a limited amount of information. The Powell case is very unique in that, in putting together the Cold podcast, we had access to a lot of information that was not available to us when Susan first disappeared. The material that was gained through search warrants and subpoenas and things like that.
Josh Powell’s Secret Double Life
When I sat down to tell Susan’s story, I was more informed than I think many of us were at the time that she disappeared about what was going on behind the scenes. Say somebody came forward and said, “Yeah, you know Josh goes on the internet and he looks at pornography.”
That is legal. You actually have a First Amendment right, arguably. The courts have defined that pornography is speech. Obviously, it’s subject to some restrictions, in that we don’t legally allow child porn.
You need a nexus that ties it together and without the context of Josh’s and Susan’s journals and all the stuff with these recordings, it’s very difficult to put that together in a way where you see the broader context.
I’m grateful that, with the rise of podcasting and some of this more long-form investigating, we’re better able to make those associations clearer than you’ll ever see on the 10 o’clock news. I think when you look at Josh as somebody who is leading a double life, to your other point, very clearly, he was never going to allow Susan to see his true self.
Susan Powell’s Story Teaches Us That Narcissistic Abusers Have Secret Sexual Lives
Josh was a narcissist, and I say that in the sense of a psychologist actually said, “You have Narcissistic Personality Disorder.” He created a persona, the persona of Josh as a young man, and the older he grew the more solidified that persona became.
The inner core, the true identity of Josh Powell, was not something that—because of that outer shell—anybody was ever going to touch, especially and including his wife. Yes, he’s never going to concede to her that he’s viewing pornography, that he’s taking all these steps that, in my opinion, were preparatory for killing her and cashing in on her life insurance, because that would reveal the deep insecurity in himself.
The little version of Josh Powell that could be hurt because the exterior was all about, “He’s the expert at everything. Nobody is smarter than me. My kids are the best kids and can do no wrong because they’re extensions of me.”
Susan Powell’s Story Teaches Us That Narcissistic Abusers Will Do Anything To Protect Their Secret Lives
It’s a very interesting thing, I think, with men who are abusive in this way, that they, very similarly, tend to show some of these narcissistic traits where they have this secret life. They protect that secret life to the exclusion of everything else.
I think part of what creates this danger is the idea that when you are exposed, when, say, a spouse discovers this, now this is going to collapse that entire world.
As a man who’s exhibiting this kind of narcissism, when you face that reality of your world collapsing, versus “I’ll just make this person who discovered it, who sees the real me, go away.” I think that’s part of why we see violence, and especially homicide, come into play in those moments.
Anne: Yeah, I think so too. I discovered my husband’s porn use 18 months after we had married in the temple and he had promised me over and over that he didn’t use porn. He’d been lying to me and manipulating me the whole time.
“That Is When The Violence Escalated”
I think it’s really interesting that he went into recovery, and when I say that I mean “recovery.” He became the model pornography addict in “recovery,” and we were actually speaking about his “amazing recovery” and I didn’t know that he was still lying and manipulating me.
Near the end I was like, “This is a sham. You are a fake. You are not in recovery. You haven’t been, and you’re speaking to people as if you are.” That is when the violence escalated.
I was like, “I’m not speaking with you anymore.” I quit my job. I was the PR director of a popular pornography addiction recovery practice, so I quit my job. I was like, “No, I am done! I am not going to be like, ‘Oh, you’re in recovery, you’re such a great guy,’ I am done with that.”
I think it’s also interesting that in the pornography addiction recovery space, which you may or may not be very familiar with, when someone enters recovery, everything in that family becomes about him and his recovery. Let’s make sure he is okay. Let’s treat him like he has cancer.
Susan Powell’s Story Teaches us That Victims Need Support
I believe that that’s actually a continuation of the abuse. I think, at that time, they should say, “Okay, she’s a victim of abuse here. She’s been a victim of abuse for ten years, when she didn’t know about his pornography use. Now we know, let’s treat her like she has cancer and let’s make sure she’s safe and then let’s wait at a safe distance to see if he really actually is a safe person to be around.”
That’s not what happens right now. When a couple goes into clergy and says he’s using pornography, they’re like, “Oh okay. Wife, you support him, be supportive.” I’m like, “What?!? No, no, no.”
Anne: That should never happen because you don’t know what else is going on. Get her to safety and then she needs to be supported while he’s held accountable. I think that’s super important. I’m trying to teach everybody that right now, but it’s not getting very far because that’s too scary. It’s too extreme. It’s too, “No, no, no. He’s not a bad guy, he just uses porn.”
Susan Powell’s Story Teaches Us That Abusive Porn Users Want To Be The Center Of Their Wife’s Universe
There are so many other behaviors that are happening here that it’s really important to make sure she’s safe before you do anything else because, otherwise, you’ll get a man in fake recovery, who—that could feed into that narcissism, right?
Anne: Then everything’s around her. I mean, I can’t tell you how many families, how many women, are spending tons of time reading books about pornography addiction. “How can I support him? How can I make sure I don’t shame him?” On and on and he’s like, “Great! It’s all about me. The relationship is all about me.”
Meanwhile, she can’t live a life because the whole life is about him and his pornography addiction. They have to adjust everything to fit this new reality to make sure he’s okay, which is coddling an abuser, really is what’s happening and, as you can tell, really making me mad.
Dave: Well, and so like Susan, right?
Susan Powell’s Story Teaches Us That Therapy Does Not Stop Abuse
Dave: With Susan and Josh, we see that when Susan is in therapy, Josh is unwilling to go. Susan writes, repeatedly, that she hopes that, if she goes and he sees that it improves her, that he will then be willing to go as well.
I want to go back in time and sit down with Susan and say, “Susan, you do not understand the way your husband’s brain works because that is never going to happen.” The only time he ever goes to therapy is when she confronts him with, “I’m leaving.”
Susan is the meal ticket. She is doing the childcare, she’s doing the breadwinning, she’s taking care of the house. If Susan leaves, Josh is going to have to work and he’s also going to have to explain why his wife left, right?
He reluctantly goes along, does the minimum necessary in that situation to just keep her on the hook. The idea of “Be supportive of your husband, you’re working together, and he’s going to see how it improves me,” Josh has no interest in improving.
Susan Powell’s Story Teaches Us How To Profile Psychologically Abusive Men
I think a lot of these men who are, again, psychologically abusing their spouses and who are violating that trust, they’re not interested in self-improvement for self-improvement’s sake. It is a form of triage.
Anne: Yeah. With me, what happened, was he was the star. He went to so many workshops and seminars for pornography addiction. He had all the right answers, and everybody was like, “Oh, you’re amazing.”
But he wasn’t going to actually improve himself. He was just going to just get tons of praise and people thinking he was smart and really cool. So, my ex actually loved therapy because the therapist thought he was great.
Anne: It can take different forms.
Anne: When people say, “Well, he’s going to therapy, so he’s willing,” sometimes I’m like, “But why is he going to therapy?”
Anne: Is it because he really, genuinely, wants to change? Can you see that? Is he humble? Is he honest? Is he accountable? Or is it because he loves when the therapists think he’s amazing and he doesn’t really want to change because he loves it? That’s what happened with me over and over and over. He was always the star, the smart one.
Anne: From your podcast, we can see why it was difficult for the law to stop Josh Powell, who was under investigation for murder, because they were trying to gather evidence and trying to get information.
Advice To An Abuse Victim
What hope do victims, like me and my community, have of getting help when it’s “just emotional abuse?” What advice would you give that community? What would you say to Susan before the murder—let’s say five years before?
Dave: Yeah. Susan dealt with a lot, I think, of self-doubt. She knew something was wrong in her marriage, and she took some steps to begin the process of extricating herself from Josh and protecting herself.
Susan Powell’s Story Teaches Us To Pay Attention To Subtle Threats
In my opinion, there’s no one clear answer as to why she stayed in that relationship–because I hear that a lot, right, “Why did she stay?” Which, in my opinion, is the wrong focus, the focus should be on why do we have an abusive man who is perpetrating on his wife?
But, for the sake of argument, if we take this question of why did Susan stay? A lot of people want to blame the Church. People that maybe aren’t from the community, or even who are, who say, “Well, clearly, she was deluded by her religion.” You have other people who want to blame it on x, y, z.
Well, the truth is I think in any of these situations, in any relationship like this, there are a lot of different influences. Susan feels some degree of fear because Josh has made, I think, some threats to her, probably in some very subtle ways, right.
She expresses a fear, at one point of, “Hey, I’m riding my bike to work on 5600 West in West Valley City, this busy road, and how easy would it be for me to have ‘an accident.’” When her father-in-law is writing in his journal that Josh has mentioned, “Boy, he just sure wishes that Susan would get hit by a car.”
Susan Powell’s Story Teaches Victims: “Trust Your Gut”
I’m looking at that saying, “Yeah, he’s probably told her as much, right. ‘I wish you’d just get hit by a truck.’” She’s thinking, “Oh my gosh. My husband wants me dead,” so you have fear.
Susan goes to the temple and she prays about it and she has a feeling that she needs to stay. So, you have all of these contrary forces, emotions. What I would tell Susan is, first, trust your gut. Clearly you were concerned enough to feel fear and then you, basically, talked yourself out of it.
Second, you have more support than you realize. Susan had a network of friends and family, who we see after she disappears, catalyze and become this amazing force to advocate for her and for her story, and they’re still doing that now ten years later. That, to me, is amazing and I don’t think she recognized how strong her support network was.
The third thing I would tell her is, “Susan, if you leave, you’re going to be okay.” Because living with somebody who, year after year, undercuts you and robs you of your positive self-image, who makes you feel like dirt, like you’re unlovable, it makes the idea of going out into the world by yourself ,with your two children, to try to make a go of it, seem very daunting.
Susan Powell’s Story Teaches Us That Victims Are Stronger, Smarter, and More Influential Than They Feel
I have the benefit of looking at Susan from outside of that relationship, and seeing somebody who is incredibly hard-working, who is bright, who loves her boys, who has plenty of admirers, who has a lot of friends, and who makes friends easily. Even for somebody who doesn’t have all those things, it’s scary to leave and take that step, but it’s also not as scary as you probably think it is, once you are on the other side.
Susan would have been okay, as long as she was safe from Josh. Going back to your point, get to safety. Do whatever it takes to get to safety and then start rebuilding your life, and you’ll be okay.
Anne: Yeah, and, in this case, safety might be psychological. Whatever that looks like for you.
Anne: I’m not going to tell victims what that looks like, but then observe from a safe distance because divorce doesn’t stop the abuse.
Anne: It doesn’t, and people don’t understand that either. They’re kind of like, “Why didn’t you get out? Why didn’t you get divorced?” I’m like, “Well, I’m divorced, but he’s still lying and manipulating and saying terrible things about me and abusing me,” every time I have to interact with him, which is minimal.
Susan Powell’s Story Teaches Us That Abusers Reject Accountability
Anne: He doesn’t take accountability for what happened. To me, it feels like another abuse episode.
Anne: It’s just another time he’s not taking accountability, and, until he can do that and clean up his mess and be accountable, it just feels like it’s never-ending. I just have to protect myself.
Knowing what safety actually means is really important. Knowing what boundaries really mean because, even women who are divorced—like I hold a no-contact boundary and all of my communication with him go through my father—but some people don’t have that, and they’re still just being continually abused.
They haven’t blocked them on their phone, for example, and they’re continually being harassed or manipulated or even their post-divorce is still somehow all about him, which is not cool. It’s not okay.
“Susan’s Story… Opened My Eyes In A Big Way”
To conclude here, at the end of the podcast, you gave a heartfelt plea to society to call out abuse in all of its forms. For my community, that is a daily prayer, that people will start recognizing this. To conclude, what was your biggest takeaway that you learned about abuse, that you didn’t know before you studied the Susan Powell case?
Dave: I could go on. This is a whole other episode. I have been, and continue to be, educated. I’m not afraid to share with you that, as a child, I was a victim of some child sex abuse, and I think it’s a whole other part of this story and many of this similar kind of situations that we don’t talk about candidly.
I feel like I came to my study of the Powell case with something of an understanding of what it is to be a victim in my own way, but seeing the impact that Susan’s story has had opened my eyes in a big way. Even today having this conversation with you Anne, is a continuation of that process.
Susan Powell’s Case Teaches Us To Show Empathy
It’s a matter of learning and forcing the uncomfortable and being empathetic. That’s my biggest takeaway honestly, I think, from seeing that abusive relationship in very close detail is, at its core, it is a lack of empathy on Josh’s part.
Not showing, what I would consider, a human care for another person’s wellbeing. We need to get back to that and prioritize that in our own families and in all of our relationships. In the people that we work with and our friends.
Being okay with being uncomfortable and understating that we don’t have to always agree or get along to care for somebody else. When someone reaches out to you, is part of your community, as “I’m in this really bad situation” and you have your own life, we all have our own daily stress and stuff to worry about, and that can feel like a very heavy weight when somebody brings that to you.
Sometimes you just want to say, “I don’t have the ability to deal with this,” but what the Susan Powell case taught me is how important it is to pause and recognize that we have opportunities to show empathy for one another, to help one another. That is a key piece in making sure that the next Susan Powell story never ends up on the news because that story becomes, “This woman got out. She got out safely and she moved on with her life.”
Narcissistic Abusers “Turn Tables” To Play the Victim Role
Anne: I think one of the most difficult things for people is that people like my ex, not so much Josh Powell because he was so dysfunctional, and he seemed so creepy. Especially when his wife has been murdered, and I’m guessing he can’t get a lot of sympathy. But people like my ex, for example, he would say I didn’t have empathy for him. So, he’s going around saying, “She didn’t care for me.” There’s also this dynamic that makes victims extremely nervous.
Anne: When you say empathy because we go, “Whoa, don’t have empathy for my abuser,” because what he’s portraying is all false and anytime someone kind of believes him or nods their head. There is no way for an innocent bystander to know that.
Anne: There is no way that his congregation, right now, would know that his stories, and their empathy toward him, is feeding his narcissism. They wouldn’t know that. Part of it, I think, is determining truth. I think truth is really important. Empathy is super important, but so is truth, because people need to understand that, in some cases, some of their actions could be enabling true harm and it’s very difficult to determine the two.
Susan Powell’s Story Teaches Us To Believe Women
I don’t fault people for doing it because it’s really, really hard. Studying this type of, I’ll call it evil, basically, as I’ve done the past ten years, is a really strange study to be like, “Okay, how can we recognize evil, when we see it?” When it’s like a wolf in sheep’s clothing type of scenario.
One of the things I really encourage people to do is, if you’re talking with someone, and they’re giving a story of this terrible woman who is controlling and awful. Find out from her. Just go talk to her and see what her story is, if you can. Sometimes that’s impossible, but being a little bit suspect, I think, sometimes, of men who claim to have been abused or men who claim to have been harmed by women.
That is a really good indicator for people of maybe he is actually the abuser. If he’s claiming to have been harmed by a woman or abused by a woman or that she was controlling or angry. Lundy Bancroft says that that’s the number one indicator that you’ve got an abuser on your hands, and he’s one of the world’s foremost experts on abusive men. In fact, you’d really benefit from reading Why Does He Do That by Lundy Bancroft, if you haven’t read it yet.
“The Willingness To Start From A Position Of Belief”
Dave: Thank you for that, because I think you’re 100% right. When I do talk about empathy, primarily, I’m focusing on empathy for women who are coming out of these situations. Not so much for the “Woe is me, my poor life” guy on the other side of it, because it’s important to be skeptical. I, as a reporter, am skeptical of everything.
But it’s been a retraining to say, “I’m going to start with belief when somebody discloses, ‘Hey, I’m in an abusive situation.’” The natural skeptic in me wants to immediately jump in and say, “Well, okay. But…” That’s not helpful to women who are coming out of these situations. The empathy that I’m trying to describe is the willingness to start from a position of belief.
Anne: Yeah, absolutely. There’s a lot that goes into this whole topic of misogyny and understanding women and the me-too movement. All of these other factors that came about after. The me-too movement happened after Susan’s disappearance.
Susan Powell’s Story Teaches us to Refuse To Politicize Abuse And Murder
Dave: It’s not political. Like, I think me-too gets a little politicized and people start wanting to say, “Well, but not all guys.” It’s like no, no, no. Let’s not do that. Let’s just focus on believing and showing empathy for people who are in bad situations who need help.
Dave: That’s all.
Anne: Yeah. Your podcast was amazing. It was gripping. If you have not listened yet, it is on iTunes. It’s called Cold. It is by KSL. What would we put in the search box for that?
Dave: If you just search cold, it should show up. If not, try cold Susan Powell and it will definitely be the top hit.
Anne: Great. If you have not heard it, I would highly recommend it. It is excellent. Thank you so much for your time, Dave. We appreciate you being here.
Dave: Thanks, Anne.
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Anne: In listening to this interview again, while I was editing, I recognized that I was talking a lot. I just want to give a shout out to Dave Cawley for the interview, where he was so willing to listen.
Thank you, from the bottom of my heart, for using this interview as a way to learn more and to listen to a victim’s story. I genuinely felt that you cared about me, personally, and that you care about all victims. Thank you to Dave Cawley and all men who are standing up for abuse victims.
If you are in a relationship with an active pornography user or someone who you suspect is lying to you or manipulating you, there is hope. We have a Daily Support Group, which is online, so you can attend it anywhere in the world. We have multiple sessions a day in multiple time zones. We hope to see you in a session soon.
Until next week, stay safe out there.
Please understand that he (Josh) most likely threatened to take her kids away and that he would get full custody of them if she left him. And he probably told her he would prove to the court that she was crazy or unstable, or having an affair, or whatever else he could think to accuse her of. And her low self-esteem and self-doubt due to gas lighting, blame-shifting, etc. underscored her fears and doubts in herself and her ability to get away and keep her kids safe. This is often why women stay. Please understand this and please share this information. The threats are real. They mean it. I have lived it.
Thank you for sharing. I appreciate your perspective on this.
This is so helpful to me as I pull away from a 30 year marriage that began with lying about tithes, to discoveries on social media and, now, he is discarding me. He has triangualted my children and grandson, he is a “pillar” of the community and, of course, he uses my diagnosis of bipolar at his convenience. This has been a night mare that I so desperately want to end and my only comfort is knowing that God is not ok with this. We have gone to Christian couples who ignored my reports of porn, inappropriate activity on social media, fantasizing and lying. The mindset is “everyone is doing it.” More men need to address this issue and I pray that God opens doors and forums for you to confront this issue. Men may leave their marriages in droves, but those who sacrifice everything for the wife of their youth and their bride will be greatly rewarded. I’m not talking about therapy. I’m talking about renouncing everything, disclosing it to church leadership. No more theatrics and tears without remorse or change in behavior. Just enough to keep us on the hook. This is so needful. Please don’t stop.
Thank you for your support! I’m so sorry for all the abuse and sadness you’ve had to go through.
I am unable to find the first week’s podcast that Anne recommends we listen to first. I have asked about this before, not being able to find the first broadcast of something, I was told to search the guest’s name, which I did, and I sent back to this, the second one. Please make it easier to find the first of multiple podcasts.
Here’s the link to the previous episode about Susan Powell and emotional abuse: https://www.btr.org/call-it-abuse-save-a-life/
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I am currently going through a divorce and it’s all because I have found out my husband was viewing pornography and masterbating In his shop and stated because he was not having sex at home he used this as an excuse he has made me feel worthless taken all my self respect to the point I wanted to die
I’m so sorry that you experienced this type of psychological and sexual abuse. Welcome. You’re safe here.
He had also shown naked photos of me ti a friend and stated it was because he was proud of me!!! On holiday faced time his daughter whilst I was in the shower she even saw me naked states that he wants to move to Thailand!! Let a married friend have sex with another woman in his shop stating that I am deluded that I was depressed I loved him with all my heart and what hurts is I thought he loved me but has never loved me also found that he was searching protitutes on his fb
Not only what I stated in my last comment he has shown naked photos of me to a friend faced time his daughter whilst we were on holiday and I was in the shower shows me naked in the shower to his daughter his married friend had sex in the back of his shop with a woman found him searching prostetutes on his fb and he said it was all my fault to which I had believed that it was me that had the problem
I’m so sorry about the abuse you’ve endured. Welcome! We totally understand this type of psychological abuse and sexual abuse.
Thank you for all that you are doing to help others know they are not alone not their suffering. Thanks also to all of you who so bravely share your stories. You are a lifeline for those of us in the shadows.